We were riding on the school bus, I was sitting in the 4-5th row and there were two other girls that were sitting a few rows behind me. It was near the end of 6th grade. These two girls and myself were snickering back and forth as we did not like each other very much. We were heading out on a school field trip.
When we arrived we all set up camp, talked about the rules and that the boys and girls will be sleeping in seperate camps and that we were all to behave like, well, children. That afternoon we were all assigned to take a hike in the Pygmy Forest, we were put into groups and guess who I was grouped with? You would be right, the other two girls, Laurie and Sherrie. They were friends, and I was fairly new to the school so I was definetly the odd man out.
Each group had a packet of papers that outlined the foliage and information that we were to identify and notate on our packet to turn in later for credit. Well, somehow we got lost from the main group, there we were, the three of us. We just knew that we were ahead of the rest of the group so as we went along we made arrows on the ground with sticks and rocks so that they did not get lost too. After several hours we made our way out of the Pygmy Forest and the trail dropped us down into camp.
To our surprise, everyone was there. We were obviously not the "leaders" of this adventure and the rest of the staff and students gave us a hard time for being lost. We did get extra points for making arrows along the way, though.
That was the day I met my two best friends, Laurie and Sherrie. We were inseperable after that, we went through so many of lifes highs and lows together; crushes on boys, broken hearts, family issues, school issues, the party life and beyond. I lost touch with Sherrie not too long after school, to this day I am not sure why. Laurie and I remained close, through marriages and two of my children being born. The one thing that Laurie did not get to do was be a mom, she tried, but there were problems. I was always so sad about that.
When I was pregnant with my first daughter, I already had a 4 year old boy, I said outloud what am I going to name her to Laurie. She said to me, "You dont remember? You named her a long time ago when we were kids." I did not remember. She went on to tell me that one night when we were giggling and doing what little teeny boppers do when we are lying in bed being funny, we discussed the names of our children. We promised each other that we would do it and we both did.
She told me her name is Chelsea. That is the name that you chose for her, so that is her name. Her middle name contains "Ann" which is Laurie's middle name. My daughter will be 18 years old in June. After a few years, she moved out of the area to the east coast, we eventually lost contact. Seven years ago I was able to talk to her, see a picture of her son whom was about 3 years old at the time. How wonderful it was that she had a child, and we made plans for her to move closer to me SOON! I could not wait to see her as a mother, it was her most precious dream.
I never heard from her again. I have searched everywhere, called everyone. I have searched the Internet every week for the last 7 years and when facebook came out I checked that every week, emailed alot of people with the same name and nothing.
Yesterday, I found her.
I received a facebook message to check out Laurie's brothers facebook post about her. I wasnt sure what to expect, I headed there immediately as I was so excited...maybe some information on her. Keep in mind, that I did find her brother months before and tried to message and call about her, but no response.
So I read the post, "she passed away today" and let out a scream, scared my family they came running asking what was wrong. I told them I found my best friend finally, but I lost her again. I was devastated, I am still in so much shock and in such immense pain that I can barely breath. She received my number 5 months ago, did she call me? I dont know. I can only hope that I did not MISS her call somehow and if I didnt miss a call...why did she not call me? What I would give to have heard her voice, just one last time. I know I could have helped her.
I got to see a picture of her son today, it was like looking at her. I will never get to see her as a mom, I wish I could understand why she left us. But now that I have found her family, there will be nothing that stands in the way. I hope to be a part of her sons life and tell him how wonderful she was and share the funny stories when he gets older and be the Aunt I have waited so long to be.
This story is not done.
My friend that told me about the facebook post said that she would let Sherrie know too. Sherrie? One of the THREE MUSKATEERS? She knows how to contact her? I was so excited. What I found out is months ago I was asked to be friends with a fellow student from high school. I recognized the name, the face but could not remember what our connection was. Unfortunately, this has happened alot with friends and acquaintances from school. Those years were a little foggy...I was having a great time if you know what I mean.
What my friend told me is this particular "facebook friend" is Sherrie's husband. How did I not put this together. I went to his facebook and looked at photos and there she was, it was Sherrie. She was here the whole time. I asked to be friends, I posted on the husbands wall....just waiting, its agonizing. I am dumbfounded, how could she be right there this whole time. And the big question, why has she not contacted me? What I would give to hear her voice.
Goodbye, Laurie. I hope that you have found a peaceful place. Know that I have not stopped thinking about you while we were apart, know that I love you and miss you terribly and I will be there for your son. You are a part of me, I would not be who I am without you. My stories would be boring if I had not had you in them. Thank you for giving me that part of your life, I will see you again someday. Wait for me. I love you.
"You Are The Wind Beneath My Wings"
Signed with love,
Candy Cody